“I hate people in the supermarket, I hate people in planes, and babies in planes when they scream. You cannot love a group of people. But, when I’m at a protest and there’s a group of people, and I see someone next to me and they scream Fuck the government, then I think Yeah, fuck the government. Then, sometimes I love a group of people. There are places where we are supposed to love people and places where you’re supposed to hate people. It’s not me, I didn’t invent this. I learnt this from my mother. If I have to go to a beach, I always chose a side where there’s none, so I can be calm and chill. They’re gonna crucify us for this, but we can share the cross.” (note⁄Group, planes, babies, protest, government, love, hate, mother, beach, cross)
A pale lovingly lady with hateful bugs, a pale hateful lady with loving bugs. Text becoming text becoming text becoming text. Are love and hate opposites? What does agressive outbursts in traffic say about a society? hating someone that just passes you by… “How does the soul perform? How does it manifest and what does it do?” (note⁄Performativity). Performative love and performative hate.
“Problem of living together and being together is a problem of rhythm, but we have to work with all the waves and weave them together.” (note⁄Accountability games) Is there a rythm in violence? Violent rythms…
Apathy and feeling. Is apathy a feeling?
“Is It is enough to be here or convince oneself to contribute?” (⦚note:insomeonesdreams.mdnot found) “This is a lunacy what this politician is doing, but they are also doing all this for that…” (note⁄Violence and the fear of difficult subjects), my friends say.
“How do we include those who are not included” (see ⦚note:insomeonesdreams.mdnot found) In another sense how do we already include the not included, as others, monsters, minors, toys. When is expansion imperialism, who is in the annex or vestibulary. Annexation. What scale is the building. Paf has floors with repeating patterns. You know whats coming next. A big symmetry. A coreography. A grid is also capture. someone says something next to me and I think what they say and think yes. Then I can love a group of people. you cannot love a group of people. Place for loving and hating groups of people. Airports, supermarkets, beaches…contexts is also where we get to become de-contextualised, where we can ground our sense of being unmoored. What does a context provide? Can it “make personal existential questions shared and lighter to deal with.” (note⁄Interpretation in art)?
“drrrrrrgd, drrrrrrgd”… I want to be blended. Like in a blender. Even if I didn’t say it, because I am in a polyamorous relationship with myself (note⁄To be blended & note⁄Auto polyamory).
C: I wanted to de-contextualise my own work. And then I realised it’s not possible. A: I’m constantly trying to find a context, having a context is a privilege, I don’t have that kind of heritage but I seek it. (note⁄(De) Contextualise Me (Please))
The table is crammed full. Of food (peeled potatoes make for great opportunities to speak of support from the government - ref. ) and of “profundities of conversation” that needed “insulation” in order to be convoked. (note⁄Trigger warning and consent).
As she takes her sit at the table, does the pale lady with bugs know where to “draw the line between expectation of care and refusal to ‘put in the work’ “? (note⁄Trigger warning and consent)
Writing with others marks a challenge that is different from those underpinning the thinking with others in co-presence. in some way, there is no turn to speak or permission to make a disagreement digestable, yet writing together feels as inhabiting a foreign land. Maybe because writing is always asking for help. (note⁄The Porous Lecture)
Hanging out in someone’s dream, convoque someone into your dream. You are involved in a process that you not necessarily know about.
“We are always translating, even in our mother tongue, we are translating for ourselves, and translating ourselves. Sometimes I can feel a certain anxiety in translating or expressing myselves in public speaking. I have been interested in the idea that anxiety feeling may be the mark that something goes wrong, but that is also the mark that I am actually caring about this thing. I am also wondering how it is possible to address a singularity in being multiple.” (note⁄Who speak when I speak?)
“There are places where we are supposed to love people and places where you’re supposed to hate people. It’s not me, I didn’t invent this.” (note⁄Group, planes, babies, protest, government, love, hate, mother, beach, cross)